20 hours in Mexico
It was crazy, but we did it anyway. Tracey and I (my METREAT cohost, role model, and yoga teacher) went to do a 20-hour site visit for this year’s METREAT, happening April 3-7 (official details coming soon, but mark the date if you just got the ping 🐆🐆!)
Two of those 20 hours were spent in the jungle, getting lost on the property, exploring its private cenote and cave, plotting how it would all go down. This location fell into my lap a few weeks ago- after exhausting the options and not being able to find one that felt aligned with what I want to cultivate.
I expected the natural, untouched beauty from the pictures, but what SHOCKED me was how quickly and powerfully this land's energy permeated through my body’s energetic channels.
20 hours in Mexico is straight up chaos on the roks, so I expected this rapid-fire adventure (it was all we could do with our combined mom-responsibilities back home) to leave me deplete… and yet we both left with a deep sense of rootedness- our feminine flames ignited, and a and a direct pathway back to the source that we’d carry home.
I know the first time I heard the word “SOURCE” it felt abstract. and it is, especially if it’s been a while (or maybe never) since you felt connected to your own.
The best way I can describe it is that SOURCE energy is something bigger than all of us… when we’re connected to it, it’s like the ultimate feeling of going from alive but feeling like a zombie to WIDE AWAKE rooted in love, yet steeped in firepower.
Our world, by design, doesn’t exactly set us up to feel connected to source….
I mean, just yesterday, I woke up to the Mexico Sun rising as my alarm clock. I greeted it with an intuitive yoga flow atop a treehouse deck while looking at the ocean and topped it off by submerging into the warm, crystal-clear salt water. I emerged breathless; my heart palpable from my chest and a soft settling into my body that I haven’t had in quite some time….
Not just alive, but AWAKE and PEACEFUL.
Today, I had to pry my eyes open, struggle to get my toddler dressed for a school that isn’t even mandatory, and get there and back in time to greet the HVAC guy to figure out why the heat wasn’t working for an appointment I totally forgot about.
Both are lives I love and am grateful for; I wouldn’t change my motherhood role for anything!!!
My point is that a lot of time away from untouched nature makes it hard to be with our own untouched selves.
Dealing with the outer world (and endless responsibilities that steal us away from getting quiet and connected) add up.
When I got out of the ocean, no make up, hair a salty tangled mess. I felt… beautiful. no mirrors- just an internal peace and a foreign feeling in the dead of winter where we live. I resist the urge to capture everything and MAY BE possibly outgrowing my selfie-era… but this felt like one worth it.
When I left Mexico, with salt water still in my hair mind you, I looked in the mirror, and I didn’t recognize myself. no make up, hair a bigger mess, i saw…a version of myself i hadn’t seen in a while.
I’ve been dealing with hair loss/breakage/and a bad hair cut which has embarrassingly taken a bigger toll on me than I like to admit and for a moment, all of that didn’t matter.
It was validated that evening on a zoom call when my friend Chelsea said “wow you’re glowing.”
When things shift on the inside, they shift on the outside.
That fierceeee female power was tapped into, and I was ready (despite how quick the trip was) to come home and bring that connection to source back with me!
The problem is always the return though, right?
Most vacations and real-life look different – a stark contrast from relaxation and then back to the grind.
How do we stay plugged into the source and keep the clarity and confidence when we leave the natural elements of earth and return to the responsibilities of every day?
I landed in New York yesterday evening. It’s funny cause this is home for me, yet it’s also filled with many of the familiar “booby traps” of my life that disconnect me from my power which include places, people, situations, and even just the climate and weather. But when I walked through my door last night, I kept that fire – that feminine flame lit and used my strength to walk over the obstacles immediately before me.
Being in your power doesn’t mean you’re in a perfect stride or upward trajectory. It doesn’t mean you’ve carved out the path to success, and now that you see it you can conquer it.
It just means you are connected to yourself, and you have YOU to lean on as your ultimate resource. Everything changes.
The participants from the last METREAT prove that everything changes once you connect with the source. I know this cause we still meet monthly, and I’m shocked by their shares of how they’ve changed since. I want to be clear – THEY did not change, nor did many of their circumstances on the outside, but the way they’re living within has changed, and from that power has come peace.
This isn’t a “wow, I created something amazing thing,” but rather an applause to these women who did the brave thing and also a step back to witness the power that erupts within when we’re in a safe container to connect with source and cultivate the tools to carry it home where the “booby traps” live.
This year’s METREAT will pivot a bit in concept, ramping up our connection to source so that we can bring that home. We’ll honor the Mayan lands we use, experience parts of their culture respectfully, and live in a jungle commune together for a few days. More details coming VERY soon, but if this speaks to you – this meaning raw nature, a community of women, a few days in Mexico, plus curated insanneeee programming designed to bring you HOME to you… hold April 3-7!!! eeeeee, reply if you’re in NEED of some source!!
xx ♡, LiLi
